明天會更好

一路走來﹐原來﹐我並不孤單。

我面對的問題﹐我以為唯有我獨扛﹐其實不然, 有個一直被忽略的朋友﹐其實在默默地為我撐著﹐我赫然發現﹐一切原來都很混亂。

沒什麼﹐只是發覺自己的信任被出賣﹐友情被貶值﹐我猛然醒覺﹐原來朋友可以很膚淺﹐朋友可以純屬虛構。

所幸的﹐當自己不再需要對一切負責的時候﹐我知道我是時候被釋放了。

漸漸地﹐我學會防衛﹐只是防衛。

過去的日子﹐不再重要﹐過去的故事﹐快樂的﹐不多﹐傷感的﹐不少。

當一切歸于零﹐我決心從新出發, 更要從心出發。

把這些故事裝進箱子裡﹐以後﹐永遠﹐都不再把他們翻開。

我﹐要開始新的故事﹐我要從新編製我的青春紀念冊。

今天的責任﹐明天的擔子﹐後天的我﹐不會再讓青春留白。

我堅信。

胡志銘 ~ 累了。

“該是時候卸下虛假的面具了。”

曾幾何時﹐我不斷的對自己重複著同樣的一句話。

無奈﹐我就是無法辦到﹐不是我嚮往這種面具生涯﹐而是﹐我害怕﹐害怕一旦退下面具﹐我會更受傷。

有的人﹐表面上跟你稱兄道弟﹐背後就亂箭四射﹐我的信任﹐我的誠意﹐換來的是遍體鱗傷﹐換來的是一陣又一陣的心痛﹐心靈它﹐破碎了﹐在緩緩地抽蓄著。

我被這零碎的心靈責備﹐它怨恨我為什麼不肯放下﹐我無語﹐畢竟﹐我是有苦衷的。

當你的付出不被珍惜﹐當你的心血慘被蹧蹋的時候﹐我相信你應該與我有著同樣的感覺。

我的付出﹐換來了諷刺﹐換來了嘲笑﹐此時此刻﹐我是不是還需要考慮退不退下面具﹖

不行﹐我已滿身傷痕纍纍﹐我不能再折磨我自己﹐讓我繼續掛上面具吧﹐因為﹐我還想保留我唯一的自尊心。請不要連少少的自尊都剝奪掉﹐因為﹐他是我繼續走下去的唯一理由。

真的﹐我累了。

好想把自己鎖起﹐我是不是該逃避﹐該躲藏﹐請告訴我下一步該怎麼走﹖

當你想起我時﹐記得把胡志銘喚醒﹐把他牽起走。

我好想睡去﹐因為唯有在夢裡﹐我才發現真實的我﹐真實的自己。

巧克力物語

巧克力的味道﹐你清楚嗎﹖

巧克力的醇香﹐你又了解多少﹖

我曾經不會品嘗巧克力﹐直到﹐她教我如何體驗巧克力的內涵﹐它的世界有甜的﹐有苦的﹐有乏味的﹐也有燦爛的。

她給我的巧克力﹐我依然回味﹐然而﹐她不再與我分享﹐因為﹐我們的巧克力變質了。

我們的巧克力不再甜﹐不是無味﹐然而﹐它確帶著一絲絲的苦澀﹐我了解﹐我們該放手。畢竟變質的巧克力﹐是傷人的。

那天﹐我們遺棄了巧克力, 留下的﹐是巧克力的遺香與回憶。

她應該沒有發現﹐我偷偷地留下了最後一塊。

我知道我有權保留﹐因為﹐我也曾經是巧克力的俘虜﹐與﹐她現在的回憶。

曾幾何時﹐巧克力的物語成了我的一切。

嘗試過不顧一切地追求﹐我沒發現﹐原來這一種不顧一切﹐越是狂烈﹐越是受傷。

不曾在乎﹐身上的傷痕﹐因為我知道﹐巧克力依然飄香。

在腦海裡的一個深深的小地方﹐存檔著關於它的味道﹐確刪除了關於她的故事。

巧克力沒有了主人﹐它自由了﹐然而﹐我呢﹖

誰能體會﹖唯有巧克力。

狂想曲

同樣的窗帘﹐同樣的想法﹐同樣的光線。

同樣的我﹐想著同樣的她﹐仰望著同樣的天花板﹐我的思緒﹐一波接一波地不斷播送。

下午的四點五十五分﹐就這一分鐘﹐我會保留。

永遠不會從來的這分鐘﹐成了﹐我的第一部狂想曲。




聽過一個故事﹐不感人﹐但是很深刻。

相信你不能體會這個故事的點點滴滴。

因為﹐它﹐是屬於我們的故事。

忘了什麼時候圈上句號。

尤為深刻的是﹐

她要我為她摘下的第一顆星。



深思﹐同樣的眼眸﹐不傳神﹐但是﹐醞釀著同樣的情感。

我的呼吸﹐我的心跳﹐又譜成了我的狂想曲。

我開始了解。

她的離開﹐是我狂想曲的續集。

也是她開始第二部狂想曲的唯一理由。

Additional Post For The International Night 07

hehehe.....

why so dark???...actually i was on the beach of piasau boat club.....

first time i was on the beach at nitezzzzz.........

kinda cold oso........but i really enjoyed the sound of the wave...and...looking at the dark sea.........











check out the photo on the right hand side.......those were my foot prints...hahahaha..kidding...

impossible for me to do that man.......

the sand was soft .............









seriously....damm cold when the wind blew.....

after the walk...i went back to the international night party.....

at time, i feel like...relax...

The Finale of My Physics Lab..

Coming to the end of this semester, i finally completed my physics lab session. still fresh in mind where the previous lab was doing something about prism and the angle angles thingy.......i admit that this was the most serious lab i attended before....feel embarrass cuz i never been serious and concentrate in physics lab before...shhhhh......dont let ms hashimah hear it...........


suppose this photo is perfect...but....haiz...look at the green colour thingy...i speechless man....


im not kissing the prism actually....u think i veli free kar??..erm....actually ya...really free during the lab.....swt...=.=|||...........
again...i am not glazing on it...i just have a thought that whether the prism can eat or not...without food ya....for me..i couldn't live man.........

do not believe???..check out kushy...in her mind ya...."alamak!!...Pisang Goreng Lutsinar..!!"


this is a safety equipment in the lab....used to wash eyes...wet the body...and..the like.....but....these only for emergency lar....observe.......i was holding the ..hehe......guess wat...if i pull.........imagine fren...........wakakaka....so mean........


imagine again...... if i have the big mouth...no no no!!!!! ...dun imagine man..........so scary......

Curtin International Night

the anually curtin international night felt on last week. as the ticket mentioned above, the dress code is our own local costume...but...where can i get the chinese cheongsam???...duhh....so i just wear jeans and t-shirt...the party was in Piasau Boat Club....it is a beach club...so...imagine how exited am i since i never been in beach at night...TSUNAMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!


see....they were in their traditional costume except me...we were really crazy at that night...we watched performances by the students and the most important thing for me was the food...hahahaha...


this is....ms rania...from Maldives...she always tell other people that im her silly buddy.....aiks....


next....deng..deng..deng..deng.... oja...miss international night 2007....from Nigeria......


this is amanda...she was in her iban costume....pretty???.....


this is li ming....erm.....if im not mistaken....she was wearing kadazan costume....


coming next.....this is shae nee....i think she comes from semenanjung..........................


fuh yoh!!digi...duhh....no lar...this dai goh called elvic.........smart guy..........

what kind of emotions???

have you ever went to KFC before..?? stupid question....


duhh...of course lar.....i went to bintang plaza few days ago...huhu...we having meal at KFC...i mean we chit chat...and laughing around......................


jimmy wong took my camera...and started taking pictures...i found variety of emotions when i having my meal......hahaha....

check this out.....


the popcorn chicken is .....wah....like my wife...my beloved....i do not have the heart to eat it...then sound from behind:"eat lar...makan ayam popcorn pun merajuk banyak banyak...budak ni...adui...."


then i ate....sound from behind:"makan je lah...cakap banyak yang tak guna langsung........."


started chewing and swallowed it.......duhh...sound from behind:"penatlah aku...budak ni memang perasan banyak tau................."


then i taste the pepsi...sound from behind:"i pening dah...minum pun mao cium...lagipun...macam dari kawasan kemarau je...tak pernah nampak air..."

the end..........

my last chemistry lab...

time is passing like lightning man...finally i had completed my chemistry lab in my foundation...
erm...nothing special to mentioned...but i snapped lots of the photos for memorable purposes lar....
see what i was holding...they are orange juice, vodka, wheatgrasses, ribena....haha...try them together...u will know that the effects is greater than beer.....im not serious....dun trust it...


the aquarium i was holding is not only an ordinary aquarium...we named it volumetric flask...but i used to called it aquarium...cuz it seems like .......duhh...aquarium...guess what....once break it...you hav to pay the same amount of > 10 sets of McDonald Happy Meal...haha....


check this out...i was taking the risk in snapping this photo...cuz it was really thin and can be broken easilly...i just wanna to show that we should drink this amount of water per day..


viki shanmuganathan...i used to call him like this...mr. vignes...do whatever u wanna do...moral support is here....


sme....sima...simelweyinkosi...dun ever call me han'zhe lar....haha....i am also gan'nan'zhe...ang'cai'tao....bao'cai...and oo'tao...


lala priya...she really our boss lar....remember she always tell...."without kushy ya...the group finished lar...."..."kushy is important in the group u know?"......haha...we know.....boss....

hey hey hey.....dont perasan ya....


this is my new fren is this semester...i really shy and so sorry cuz i do not really sure how to call her....we used to call her pasta lar....see...we are "wei xiao pasta"....


kok fong...haha...nice + kind = good....


amira...mea...mira.....kinda active and sweet gal...


this is Ms Lau...my lecturer...a patient lecturer......helpful and...nanana...im not 'toadying' ya...

Last but not least......Ms Aye.....i still owe her kacang putih......okok....i will remember de..i promise....since last semester i told that......duh..

The day in Taiwan Restaurant

the day we went to a Taiwan Restaurant for lunch...haha...before that, like usual...we faced difficulties in deciding where to eat...haiz...then we end up with trying the taiwan food in miri...

the taiwan restaurant look not so taiwan style...the food...so so lar....like the pearl milk tea i holding...taste not bad but i do not really like it...im smiling because im taking photo...dun misunderstand it...k?


this is the rice cost me RM4...kena tipu...it contained some mushroom with meat..and sayur masin...i really ENJOYED the food and haha...check out my frenz...


taiwan tea...just a small teapot...cost RM5...i prefer teh boh or lipton red tea........................



see...both pictures on top and bottom......we are just holding the cups....................for photo session

we are sweet everytime...k?.....perasan................

sme's hair style...u will get shocked!!

she is sme...simelweyinkosi sibanda...she is from zimbabwe...southern africa...

today, she came to my house...we suppose doing the chemistry project discussion, but we end up plaiting hair....check out the style....u will get shocked...






this call 'sun rise' from the shoulder...hair dresser: jimmy wong....






this named by chee meng...called 'altec lansing headset'....
look at her...she was happy with the brand new headset....







here is the japanese ghost....we called 貞子...but not crawling out from the television...huh.....check this out...she is so scary man....haha..






anywhere...she is my number 1 frenz...she is sweet, nice, and kinda crazy....at time...she is also cute..










finally, even i also had long hair...haha...

see?..oh my godness.....